Tuesday, May 24, 2011

harapan pada-Mu


harapan pada-Mu subur kembali
nazrey johani
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Wahai tuhanku Yang Esa
Bila kenangkan Qohhar-Mu
Rasa gerun di hatiku
Kerana takutkan seksa-Mu

Hamba-Mu rasa berputus asa
Siapakah dapat bersihkan diri
Dari segala dosa yang menggunung
Setiap hari setiap ketika

Tika mengenang Ghaffar-Mu
Putus asa tiada lagi
Semangatku pulih semula
Harapanku subur kembali

Saturday, May 21, 2011

the third step : dua genggaman padu

in life, there are just so many things we want, dont we? every one of them glisten like stars right in front of our eyes.. hovering right above our open palm, waiting to be grasped and us to enjoy its bliss..
but then, we all have to choose which we really want..
and which we will have to let go..
first, SPM. second, the interview. and now, the Calling. and hear me Allah, i am grateful for every single drop of Ni'mat You bless me. alhamdulillah..

Monday, May 2, 2011

i know you love me

the angel Jibrail once told Rasulullah SAW the following incident about a man in the past who worshipped Allah SWT continuously for 500 years. he was granted a shelter on top of a mountain that was surrounded by salty water. however, Allah caused a stream of sweet water to flow thru the mountains for that individual. the man would drink from this water and use it for his ablution. Allah also grew a pomegranate tree from which the man would eat one fruit everyday.
one day this person supplicated to Allah, "oh Allah, bring my death while i am in the state of prostration." Allah accepted this doa of his. whenever Jibrail AS came down to earth, he found this man prostrating to Allah. Jibrail AS said that on the Day of Judgement, Allah will tell the angels to take this man to Paradise thru His mercy. however, this man insists that he should enter Paradise thru the good deeds that he had performed.



then , Allah will tell the angels to compare his good deeds with the blessings that were goven to him in the world. it will appears to be that 500 years of worship would not even be equal to the gift of eye sight that was given to him by Allah. the angels will be asked to take him towards the hell fire.


then the man will plead, "oh Allah! enter me into Paradise only thru Your mercy."
"oh my servant, who created you?"
"oh Allah, You have created me."
"were you created because of the good deeds you've done or because of My mercy?"
"because of Your mercy."
"who granted you the ability to worship for 500 years?"
"oh the Almighty, You have granted me the ability to do that."
"who placed you in the mountains surrounded bu ocean? who caused a stream of sweet water to flow in between the salty water? who caused a pomegranate tree to grow for you? who granted you death while in the state of prostration?"

"oh the Sustainer of the Worlds! You have done all these."
"all these have happened due to My mercy and you too will enter Paradise only thru My mercy."


source: Kitab Tanhibul Ghafileen
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we can never thank Allah for the blessings that He has given us. look around you. even then, look no further. you yourself are a testament of His Love. we're here because of His Love. if not, we'd never even be here. and even so, our ability to recognize this fact is also a proof of His Love. our ability to make sense of the world, to make sense that "oh im living. im a human" is also due to His Rahim. have you ever wonder, what would it be like if we humans, dont exist? what or who would take our place as the Khalifahs? this question would stab my conscience everytym i think about it. i kept trying to imagine the world without humans. it baffles me, up to the point where i would even reflip the pages of my Tauhid book, trying to study the hidden meanings behind the Sifat 20. Wujud,Qidam,Baqa'.. everything.and it really shook me how much ive forgotten.astaghfirullah..

as humble as i began thinking, i humbly found the answer. it actually doesnt matter what or who would take our place. because in the end, it wont even cause a tiny weeny bit of harm to Him. but what matters most is what do we do with our existence. how much have we used our knowledge or life to help others. you dont necessarily have to be a teacher or doctor to help people. there are billions of ways you could do to lighten up someones day. a simple 'Hi' or 'Hey, sihat?' could do a lot. so long as you have people remembering you, remember them. even if they may not remember you, just remember them in your prayers. thats what ukhuwah and love is all about. why? because ' a simple act of kindness brings such meaning'.

why ukhuwah? well simply said, thats the reason why Islam reached our shores. those dai's and sahabats wouldnt travel all the way to the farthest side of East if they didnt love the Prophet Muhammad and Islam. how did Rasulullah do it? ukhuwah. he bonded every man and woman during that time with the ties of aqidah and fikrah of tauhid. and that ukhuwah lives on. sadly enuf, most people failed to see this. ukhuwah is viewed as a mere term. a mere "friendship bond". but ukhuwah, its no mere friendship nor ties. its a bond in the name of Allah - ukhuwahfillah. a bond that would be the witness of a friendship solely for Allah. a bond that always reminds the bonded of Allah's Creations, Plans, Judgements, Hikmahs and such. a bond that lives well up to Paradise. they say, "bersama menuju syurga ya?" .i say, "mari cari sahabatsahabat dahulu."

why love? simple. its the reason we live. and the reason i keep repeating this? so that we would realize how big His Love is. Allah's Love was the thing that existed before everything was created. and because of His Love too, He created this universe. just imagine what would it be if He does not have that Love. people often mistook love as sumn that only happens between married couples, families, and friends. but for me, love is everything. everything in the world that relates to Him is by love. with Love, doa's are granted. with Love, people die. and with love too, we enter Paradise insyaAllah..
'hidup hanya sekali beb, enjoy lah!'. hahaha.i almost laughed at this.wait,i did.just couldnt stop thinking how easily fooled they are to utter this..foolish statement.oh yeah? hidup hanya sekali ye? sebab tu kite kena enjoy? fine.nanti dah kantoi kat 'sana' enjoy lah puaspuas ye? your old enough to think. so yeah, do it.
therefore, always remember what's our purpose here. time is running out. Judgement Day is very very very near. so please, do make full use of it. you dont wanna regret later.

HEAL AND YOU WILL BE HEALED